Friday night and I'm finally sitting down. I worked thirteen hours today. I'm glad because I need the hours, but Becka has deteriorated all day, and tonight she is very sick. She kept texting me at work telling me to hurry home, and I did as fast as I could. She had already gotten sick, so I held her and gave her some medicine. When she is this sick she can't think straight, so I have to tell her what to take. I gave her a pain pill and a sleeping pill so she can relax, and now she's asleep. I'll be watching her through the night, and I am taking her Mom and Dad to the airport in the morning, so tomorrow will be a day of rest, (after I get home from work). She is running a low grade fever tonight. Her legs and stomach are cramping, and she is nauseous. The cure is as bad as the disease sometimes.
I hadn't planned on working this late, but I had an emergency come in this afternoon. Some of you know that Im a Refrigeration Specialist for a grocery store chain. I oversee ten stores, service and repair all of the Refrigeration, HVAC, Electrical, Plumbing, Energy Management, Food and Deli Equipment, and general maintenance. Just about the only thing I don't do is change light bulbs. (We have a company that does that). One of my stores lost power today along with the rest of the shopping center, and the power company didn't get it back on for six hours, so we had to shut the store down, bring in a refrigerated truck, ice down the product, and wait. Once the power came back on, I rebooted all of the systems and checked to make sure everything came back on, then helped them put the store back together. I had Beck on my mind the entire time, and I prayed my way through it. I love my job very much. I just need to be here for her when she's this sick, so I'm glad they work with me the way they do. They really are a fantastic company, and I have a great team and an even better boss. God has truly blessed me there!
Now I'm looking to God to make her feel better. She's been sick for long enough. Becka is so vibrant and full of life, and now she's incredibly sick, but her head is still up and she's going to get through this. WE are going to get through this together as a family. My heart feels like it's going to jump out of my chest. PLEASE God let these treatments be worth it. PLEASE let them be working. I keep wondering if there is anything I'm missing, anything else I can do. When I hold her while she's crying, scared, and sick, I feel so helpless. I would trade twenty years of my life for her to be in remission. Or more.
Going to get some shut eye. 3:00 comes early. They have to be at the airport at 4:30am. Good night all and God Bless. Love you all!
