Day Twenty Seven

Saturday and all is well! The kids are still gone so we woke up and went out to breakfast at McDonalds, then went to a fabric store and Walmart to have the oil changed in our van. We got back to the house and took down Christmas, and I cut down the tree in the front yard. Becka helped me because it was so beautiful outside. Our neighbor from across the street saw Becka standing in the road holding a rope that I had tied to the tree, and he came to the rescue. Many thanks to Joel who helped me get it all up out of the yard and street and then go dump it. Becka has wanted that tree down for a while, so I was glad to get it done! I'm so glad she felt good today. The weather was perfect! We came in and took a nap....(naps are sooooo good), then we went and got ice cream and rented a movie. The day was awesome, and I'm thanking God from the bottom of my heart! It doesn't look like we are going to get a winter this year. (Al Gore must have been right).

I'm picking up my sister in law from the Airport tomorrow! That will be SUCH a blessing. She will be here for two weeks! After that, her other sister will be coming to stay. Her entire family rocks! Trust me guys, one of the keys to a successful marriage is to love your in-laws, and I do for sure! Her mother is the Matriarch of the family, and she raised some great kids, and they have raised some great kids. Becka's father is a true man of God who has devoted his life to spreading the Gospel of Jesus Christ to those who haven't heard it. He will be receiving rewards in Heaven for sure.

Good night all and God Bless! Happy New Year!! I'm so glad to report great news these days. I know that will change, but I'm loving it for now! Love you!

More to come.....

Day Twenty Six

It's finally FRIDAY! The kids aren't here tonight so we went on a date! Becka's favorite restaurant in the world is Genghis Grill. We had a great dinner then came back to the house to watch a movie. We rented the first Sherlock Holmes. I'm watching it now while my gorgeous wife is sleeping beside of me. Everything wears her out these days. I'll tell her how it goes, or we can watch it again in the morning. The meal made her happy! I love it when we can go out and I can show her off. I pray for the day that we can go somewhere special like the beach! I want her to feel the sand between her toes and smell the ocean, and watch the sun go down then come up over the sea. Becka made me a romantic!

She's awake so back to the movie. She's feeling good these days, and our faith is strong that the radiation worked and the Chemotherapy will work as well. God has a divine plan for her, I truly believe. I know that one part of his plan for her was to save me, because she has. I love her so much I can taste it, smell it, feel it in my soul. It is more real than anything else ever has been, and I would be nothing without her. She makes me a better man, a better husband, a better father, and a better servant to God. I have no complaints.

God Bless and Happy New Year! Kiss the one you love, and tell them how you feel!
More to come.......

Day Twenty Five

Thursday night and I am sick, so this will be a little short tonight. Becka and I are alone, except for the dogs. The kids are at their Dad's house until Sunday. Tomorrow we are eating steak and lobster, going to the movies, then going to ride go-carts! (Just kidding). I wrote that to see if the kids are reading this. They don't think we are supposed to eat when they aren't here.

I've had a sick headache all day, and my stomach is churning, so I'm fixing to go to bed. Becka is doing well, although her head is still pealing. She's wearing a beautiful scarf that her family gave her yesterday! I think we crashed last night. We both slept about ten hours. I pray I'm not getting sick. She sure doesn't need that since her immune system is weakened.

I made Digiorno pizzas for supper. It's hard to think right now so I'll write some more later. God Bless you all and thanks so much for your support and prayers!

More to come....

Day Twenty Four

Wednesday and another blessed day has gone by! Becka has had a couple of great days. Gina made her so happy by being here, but it was emotional when she left. Becka bought some chloroform, but we didn't get our chance, and Gina got away.

Becka's Aunt, Uncle, Cousin, and kids came by today and took us all out to lunch! They are wonderful, Godly people who brought her gifts from Poland and India! It made her happy to see them and spend time together. They had fun as well playing with the dogs! Becka's cousin has beautiful, very respectful kids. We went to Ruby Tuesday's and had a great meal. I hated seeing them leave as well. They had a calming presence and that's what Becka needs.

Her head is pealing from the radiation. It's like she was sunburned. I put lotion on it tonight, and it looks like she's growing hair back, but that might be wishful thinking. They told her all of this is normal. There is nothing normal about what she is going through. As I write this, she's asleep on the couch beside of me. She starts Chemo on the tenth of January. I pray that she has little to no side effects.

I took off work today to be with her. I can't take tomorrow, so it's bed time. God Bless all! I'm going to get my Baby up and in bed so she will be more comfortable. Good Night!

Day Twenty Three

Rainy day today. Took all of my energy, as if I had any. I got a lot accomplished today at work thanks to Gina. She took Becka to the doctor. Did I mention how glad I am she's here? The doctor wants Becka to heal for a while from the radiation before she starts Chemotherapy, so she will get her first treatment on the tenth of January. I'll be taking off that day to be with her. I pray it doesn't make her sick, but even so I'm grateful for it. It's going to save her life, put her in remission, and make her well again. I'm looking across the room at her right now, sleeping on the couch. She's so worn out. Just six months ago she was testing for her yellow belt in Taekwondo and winning a trophy for board breaking. I dream of the day that she's full of energy again so we can go somewhere special together. I know that is coming soon!

I brought home some pork barbecue for supper. Everyone chowed down and Gina cleaned up the kitchen! I could kiss her, but she's got a big, scary boyfriend. Oops, that's right, I have kissed him! (Long story).

I'm going to call it a night early again. I have two doctor appointments tomorrow. My doctors have worked with me since I had to be with Beck at hers. I'm going to see my Orthopedic doctor in the morning, and my Neurologist after that. He gives me acupuncture for pain. I get Sciatica so bad sometimes that I can't walk, so along with the acupuncture, my ortho gives me steroidal epidurals. I can't take any narcotics and the insurance company won't pay for surgery yet. I have to be on pain therapy for a year before they will fix it permanently. Sounds like a scam to me , but I can't have surgery right now anyway. I need to be able to take care of my Angel, and I LOVE that job by the way. I'm so grateful to God for putting us together when he did. It fills my heart to know that she trusts me to take care of her needs and wants, and I love everything we do! She's taken care of me since we met. It's my turn!

My life is on a certain course, determined by God, set by the Holy Spirit, and accepted and carried out by me. If I could have any other life, I would chose this one. My heart and soul are with her, so my body is going to stay as well. I don't know what God has in store for the future. I know he hears our prayers, and I truly believe they make a difference with him. He loves us, and he knows what's best for us. He knows our hearts, and we know him by only one word - Love. My favorite song, possibly of all time, is by Casting Crowns. It's called "Praise you in this Storm". If you get a chance, listen to it on youtube. The words have so much meaning to me now, and they help me to have faith. I will praise him in this storm, and every other that comes in this life.

Good night and God Bless! I pray he blesses you with the love he has me. Love that I don't deserve, but gladly accept. More to come...........

Day Twenty Two

The day after Christmas and all is well! Becka is doing great today! She hasn't been hurting except for some swelling. I worked all day and brought supper home...(KFC). She's SO happy tonight! I can see it in her eyes and hear it in her voice, and it's all because Gina is here! Becka couldn't WAIT for her to get here. It's so wonderful to see them together! I pray that she gets to Texas safely, but I hope she stays here for a couple of ......years!. God sends angels in so many different ways, and Gina is definitely one of them! Anything that makes my wife happy right now I'm grateful for!

I'm going to make cookies in a few. I'm supposed to be on a diet, but who cares? So what, my wife likes round guys! As long as I can see my feet without using a mirror, then it's all good! (I am going to go on a diet after the first, and I'm going to stick to it). I'm not vain, but I want to look the best I can for Beck, and I feel better physically when I'm 175lbs. (Right now I'm 215). Forty pounds is no problem. I can lose that in two months just by drinking water and watching my fat intake.

Bed is coming early tonight for me. Becka and Gina will probably sit up and talk, but I'm exhausted. I'm SO glad she's here! Thank you Lord so much for protecting her, and continue to do so until she reaches her destination. I pray the blood of Christ on Gina. It's no wonder why Becka loves her so much!

Good night and God Bless all! I pray for days as good as this one was! Becka goes to the doc in the morning, possibly for her first Chemo treatment. I hope not, and I hope so at the same time. I wish she didn't have to go through it, but if it will save her life I'm grateful for it. I'll post tomorrow about everything.

Night.........Peace...........More to come.......

Day Twenty One- Christmas!

Today has been a fantastic day! We woke this morning early and welcomed Santa Claus, then I cooked a breakfast of bacon, sausage, and pancakes. We exchanged gifts and relaxed. That's when the devil tried his best to steal our joy. Becka and I butted heads, and it could have escalated and ruined our entire day as well as the kids, but the enemy doesn't know how deep our love is for each other and for God. We came together in an embrace, apologized, and decided that we wanted to give this day to God. We both have been stressed beyond comparison, so it's understandable. One thing I've learned is that couples who love each other will always argue. The trick is to keep loving each other during the argument. We went on to my mother's house with a green bean casserole and a pink lemonade cake, both made by Becka. It was fantastic! Everyone wanted to hug and kiss Beck. My mother and stepfather bought her a sewing machine! We came back to the house and lay down for a bit. She's still asleep, probably for the night.

I'll probably wake her up to take a pain pill so that she won't start hurting during the night. Then she would have to wait for it to take effect. Better to be proactive.

I think this was my best Christmas ever. I'm so grateful that she felt good today! God gave her strength and carried both of us through the day. All we had to do was let him! It's funny. I always knew how beautiful she is, but every time I look at her she becomes more so. I didn't think it was possible, but I love her more every day. The enemy and cancer is NOT going to take her away from us! We still have so many things to do first!

She has an appointment with the doctor on Tuesday. I'm not sure when they are starting her Chemo, but it won't be long. Even though I know it might make her sick, I'm grateful for it because I know it will save her life!

Sweet Dreams and God Bless! Thank you for all of the cards and well wishes. More to come......

Day Twenty

Christmas Eve! Today has been a good day. I'm grateful for the good days, because she has had some bad ones and I know that more are coming. Her forehead looks like someone took a torch to it, so she went back up on her steroids, and she's still in some pain. I changed the dressing on her wound tonight and it was painful for her, but it had to be done. She says it feels like a broken collar bone. While I was changing her bandage, I prayed with her that God would take her pain away, and he did! She's feeling good now. I cooked barbeque chicken on the grill tonight and Fern just showed up with some "No Bake" cookies to DIE FOR! I just ate one, but I can see myself eating the rest of them.

I'm so glad tomorrow is Christmas! I'm absolutely exhausted. I've been up since 3:00 am. Becka was hurting and we never went back to sleep, so I think I might go take a nap at 8:00 at night. It's going to be a long night anyway. Santa Claus is coming, so I want to be fresh for him. (I'm going to kidnap a reindeer).

Becka is going to lay down as well. Good night all and God Bless! Merry Christmas!

Day Nineteen

Friday finally. Praying for a better night than last night. Becka was in a lot of pain from her surgery. They told her to take tylenol, lol. Thank the Lord that they also gave her something with a little "kick". Last night I tried to prop her up in bed with some pillows, and we finally found a comfortable position, so she went to sleep. She's been hurting all day and tonight. She says it feels like a broken collar bone. I know it will stop. How soon no one can say. She has a hole in her chest with a foreign object there. I'll be so glad when she feels good again. I know that when someone is sick for a long time, they get depressed. She's still in good spirits though, mostly because of all of you and your well wishes and actions. Thank you so much!

I worked all day, came home and cooked supper, then ran Autumn to the Verizon store so she could transfer her phone. Becka gave her the droid. She's pretty happy. I recruited her to wrap presents. Afterwards I went to Lowes and Walmart to do some last minute Christmas Shopping. I got Becka a ________.......(I know she reads this). Love you Honey! We decided to buy something for both of us this year to save money, so I picked up a nice floor lamp for our bedroom. It has three shelves and it's bronze. She likes it! I text her several pictures from Lowes so she could pick the one she wanted. She feels too bad to go out right now. I pray she's better for Christmas. If not, people will just have to come here! (Maybe they will stay and help clean), lol.

God Bless all and Merry Christmas! This experience has changed me forever. I know the true meaning of love like never before. Words like "devotion" and "responsibility" have taken on new meanings as well. God is changing my heart. He picked this time in my life for me to be sober, clean, and right headed, then he put me where I am. Where I belong, no doubt. I love my wife, like no other man could. She will get better!

Day Eighteen

It feels like Friday. I wish it was. First I have to say thank you to Becka's Brother and family. People are blessing us and we won't forget it. It touches my heart every time anyone reaches out to Becka, because I know that there is a lot of fear involved. I've been in that situation where I knew someone was hurting, and I didn't know what to do, so I did nothing. I am in awe of people's courage. Thank you David and Sue!

Today has been painful for Beck. The port-a-cath is hurting her. I'm grateful for the pain meds, but they make her loopy and she takes as few as possible. I'm trying to get her to take them proactively, but it's up to her. I just shaved the rest of her head down to the skin. I brought the razor and water in the living room and shaved it on the couch. Her head has been itching, and now we can put lotion on it. She said it feels much better now! I can't say enough how proud I am of her. There is no defeat in her. She is going to beat this cancer to a pulp! It will be sorry it ever messed with her.

Hey Satan. I know you love it when God's children suffer, but you lose this time, so up yours!

Becka has to sleep sitting up for now. Please pray that her chest will stop hurting where they put the cath in. I'm going back to work tomorrow. All will be well! I went to the Mall tonight to do some last minute Christmas shopping. (I think I know what Hell is like now). I'm looking forward to Christmas. The whole family will be together, and Becka will get a thousand hugs! They all love her so much. Don't forget, they told me if she ever leaves me, I'm out of the family and she's in! (They weren't kidding).

God Bless everyone! Thanks Mom and Steve and Jim and Pat and David and Sue and Gina and John and Colleen and Todd, and.....I literally could go on and on. If you are reading this, God Bless you and Thank you!

Merry Christmas!